shapes of rain

it drizzled on our first new year's eve, when you twirled me and we danced and kissed on the stroke of midnight. it poured hard as we ran to the safety of our little sanctuary, that warm evening in our first april. the rain couldn't resist kissing us goodbye on the sixth day in our second april.

somehow i have an inkling that it'll rain on our wedding day.

and i wouldn't mind at all :)

certainly uncertain.

it's not clear when our first real date was -if we ever had one, we don't know when we officially got together, i'm not sure when i started to fall for you, we certainly don't remember who said i love you first, but i surely remember our first kiss... and our second, and third.

just thinking about it gets me all tingly :)




ps. sorry for almost hitting your nose with my shoulder tonight, it tickles when you kiss me there. (i love it!)

after last night

my heart is screaming by now!

:)

listen

recently i've gotten numerous emails and links regarding "how to find your soul mate", "what is a soul mate", "how do you know he is THE one?", etc. not that i have anything against them, they do give good tips on how to anticipate the right person coming along.

my dear friend wondered how it would feel, if it would feel like you've finally found home, if you'd feel no doubt, if it would be like in the movies.

i told her: reading too much of those emails give me a big headache. too many theories! i think we'll eventually know in our hearts when we finally decide on making him "the one"...

and yes, i realized then that i used "decide on making...", because that's exactly what it is. "the one" doesn't just happen.

for me, it just feels.. right. no fireworks, no drama, no fantasy scenario like in the movies. it feels different than before, it's more subtle, and i quite like it. i'm actually not wondering "what if" this or that. i just think i can face the future together with him, i'm actually not scared. it's about finding that person who will work on the relationship as hard as you will. knowing and trusting that they will commit to do so feels reassuring. i feel safe.

i don't know what the future holds for us, but since 2 years ago, when i listened (carefully) to my heart, it whispered his name. and now, this whisper has grown stronger by the day.

let it rain down on me

anyone who says sunshine brings happiness has never danced in the rain.

-anonymous




ps. i got rained on last night, and i giggled all the way home.
i think anyone should do it any chance they get. thank you God for the sun, rain and all the sparkling stars above.

art by a. fientje

some questions answered.. for now

Question:

“What does it take to sustain a happy and successful relationship or marriage?”



http://goop.com/newsletter/43/en/



ps. thanks adis!

roses, dahlias and peonies

me like! a great project for a slow sunday afternoon.

if that doesnt work out, be sure you have a crafty bestie to make one for you :)



for the pattern:

http://www.marthastewartweddings.com/article/fabric-garden-rose-and-peony-how-to

0717

let us pray, smile, live, love #indonesiaunite #sixwords

about sunsets

frankly, i'd rather watch you watch the gorgeous sunset...

seriously...

i miss you. no kidding.

I love you till the end

I just want to see you
When you're all alone
I just want to catch you if I can
I just want to be there
When the morning light explodes
On your face it radiates
I can't escape
I love you till the end

I just want to tell you nothing
You don't want to hear
All I want is for you to say
Why don't you just take me
Where I've never been before
I know you want to hear me
Catch my breath
I love you till the end

I just want to be there
When we're caught in the rain
I just want to see you laugh not cry
I just want to feel you
When the night puts on its cloak
I'm lost for words don't tell me
All I can say
I love you till the end



by the pogues. from ps. i love you.



i love it when simple words can give me goose bumps.

tu me manque

write... i miss reading your writing.

what should i write?

anything. about nothing and everything.

you said it had to come from the heart. if you haven't written in a while, has your heart been empty?




i'd like to think it's because you're just too caught up in the moment.

about sharing. 2.

have we shared the sight of a rainbow? or even a sunset?

i know we've shared plenty of starry nights and full moons.

about colours

hey, you know what's funny? we first talked about getting serious at magenta (restaurant), and now it seems we're gonna have somewhat a magenta theme, even though we didn't initially choose to..

it's called premonition :)

about time

*a conversation over ym that took place yesterday around 5pm.*

i can't believe it's already july!
it's been more than 2 years, and i can't really name specific incidents...
we don't even jot down important dates...
either we're getting old and lazy...
or what...
well, it's okay.... as long as we enjoy it...
but i bet when we get older, we'd like to remember stuff and dates and years and happenings in between...
before you know it, we'll be 60 and we're like whaaatt?? what happened? you know what i mean?

*making notes: april 12: bogor, may 10: pancoran, june 21: families meet...*

we don't even know when we got together...
we don't even remember when we decided to get serious...
i know it was during dinner at magenta, and it was during ramadhan, i think.. a couple of weeks before ied...
everything's almost a blur...

but it means we really take pleasure in everything, we don't know which is more important, because everything's important

we get so carried away that we don't remember... haha.. we forget to write history,... our story

uhm...

just found out yesterday he wants to put action figures in our future living space.

.............



*sigh*

Connection questionable.

What connects us, really? What draws us together? What initially attracted us to one another? When I think about it too much, I can’t come up with much. But really, sometimes I wonder. Some couples dive together, others connect through their passion for words, or art, or sports…

There’s not much sense nor reason to dwell into it. Just a waste of time. Sometimes things just happen, the universe conspires for 2 people to come together. Okay, I get it. But really…

I must remember that just the other day, I heard myself reiterate words to a dear friend of mine who was having the same thoughts as me. “Don’t think about it too much, love works in funny ways”. Most of the time you cannot pinpoint to exactly why 2 people mutually unite, that’s the beauty of it. Most times people hook up because they need to learn something from each other. The question is: how do you commit to keep on learning and growing from one another, together?

I’ve yet many things to learn from you, and one of the things you continually teach me is to remember about the wonders of time and patience, and I love you for that.

sometimes...

particularly yesterday morning, as i was sitting pretty, waiting at the KUA, i caught a glimpse of the ruang nikah. just then i wished things were much more practical. we could just elope and get married there. just straight-forward, get down to the point. somehow i think it's very romantic.

then again, what do i have to complain about? things are already pretty simple and lucky.

but for now...

for today, let's just enjoy the sunrise.

let tomorrow arrive when the time comes.

dreaming about tomorrow...

but does tomorrow dream of me?