listen

recently i've gotten numerous emails and links regarding "how to find your soul mate", "what is a soul mate", "how do you know he is THE one?", etc. not that i have anything against them, they do give good tips on how to anticipate the right person coming along.

my dear friend wondered how it would feel, if it would feel like you've finally found home, if you'd feel no doubt, if it would be like in the movies.

i told her: reading too much of those emails give me a big headache. too many theories! i think we'll eventually know in our hearts when we finally decide on making him "the one"...

and yes, i realized then that i used "decide on making...", because that's exactly what it is. "the one" doesn't just happen.

for me, it just feels.. right. no fireworks, no drama, no fantasy scenario like in the movies. it feels different than before, it's more subtle, and i quite like it. i'm actually not wondering "what if" this or that. i just think i can face the future together with him, i'm actually not scared. it's about finding that person who will work on the relationship as hard as you will. knowing and trusting that they will commit to do so feels reassuring. i feel safe.

i don't know what the future holds for us, but since 2 years ago, when i listened (carefully) to my heart, it whispered his name. and now, this whisper has grown stronger by the day.