our BIG day in just 15 days!

invitations to our party, his take and mine :)

i heart you

hearts in our days in the past. more to come, i'm sure :)

confession time!

i have a confession to make. the "true colors" entry was meant to be for my best friend. most of the time she doesn't realize how really beautiful she is. i wonder how colorful and shiny her aura is, must be spreading for thousands of miles. she has stuck with me for years and years, through thick and thin (literally, and unliterally). her kindness and sincerity leaves me speechless. i don't know what i did to ever to deserve you. love you always :)

ps. i know what i should give you on my big day, a box of tissues! you'll probably cry more than me hee hee :P

20 days!

like before every new adventure, i get butterflies in my stomach... but now i've got dragonflies, firelies and hummingbirds in there as well!

true colors are beautiful

true colors, by cyndi lauper

You with the sad eyes
don't be discouraged
oh I realize
it's hard to take courage
in a world full of people
you can lose sight of it all
and the darkness inside you
can make you fell so small

But I see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

Show me a smile then
don't be unhappy, can't remember
when I last saw you laughing
if this world makes you crazy
and you've taken all you can bear
you call me up
because you know I'll be there

And I'll see your true colors
shining through
I see your true colors
and that's why I love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors are beautiful
like a rainbow

to my ghettolicious hootchie mamas

since i couldn't give a speech on saturday night, i wish to write you all a letter. i think the (lame) reason was speechless was cos i was just overwhelmed with joy (sheesh), no really! i feel so blessed to sit there among you lovely girls, you who put together that great dinner, and such a ghettolicious night! i'm telling you, i'm still feeling some of the after-effects (sans regrets)! i hadn't had that much fun in the loooonggeessttt time!! even adis hadn't seen me dance all night like that before! i wish you had a good time, cos i surely had a blast!! i wouldn't know how to repay you! like, seriously. i'm one happy woman!! SO LUCKY to have you as my dear friends!

big smooches,
irma

ps. and thank you for the lovely gifts!!!

30!

1 month = 30-31 days.

i wonder what the horoscope for today is.

yesterday

yesterday was a good day.

my guy got the best birthday present he could ever ask for; he got to visit a brand new nephew who was born the previous day.

and on his birthday, he gave me the best present i've ever gotten from him, 2 love letters :)

*smiling ear to ear*

i usually feel like i'm the luckiest girl alive, but i just feel so overwhelmingly blessed these days, that no present seems good enough (for him). i know my present was a lame one, so lame i won't share it here, and i don't know what can top his present to me. for all it's worth, i pray for his happiness and well-being everyday. i want to make him happy. i just want to make him happy.

i hope i can. i surely will try my best.

he calls me wife

prematurely. but i'm loving the sound of it.

art by clemente.

32, 13, 33

tomorrow's his 32nd birthday. 33 days away from our big day.

:)

34

and yes i'm over the moon, eventhough sometimes i think we stand on opposite sides of the planet.

growing anxious!

nothing moves, nurtures, and expands the soul like watching something else grow. ~j.mraz

but, i'm also growing excitement berries and a happiness tree, and leaving plenty of room for them to grow.

:P

red

i even love your red socks.

urgh, i'm so hopeless.

wish you were here

dear nenek,

i suddenly extremely miss you, almost to the point where i can feel my heart breaking. he tells me that you’re here with me, but you’re not, which makes it hurt even more. and to pray for you makes it hard for me to breathe. so, i thought this would be easier.

i've been pretty busy, doing overtime at work, getting stuff done for my wedding. so many things to do; i think the trick is just to prioritize and manage the time carefully between trying to take care of those errands and making sure i spend as much time as i can with the family. thankfully, it's not as stressful as i hear from other peoples' experiences. thankfully, ibu & ayah, and the whole family, and his whole family have been so helpful and supportive. thankfully, our friends have been so excited about our relationship and the wedding. thankfully, he is proving to be such a great partner. i don't know how i'll ever be able to repay them for their love.

we finished the design of our invitations, i think you'd like his design better, he drew it all by hand. my classic-cut kebaya is being sewn, the rings are ready to be picked up. i wonder what item of yours i can wear that day, may i borrow a pair of your gold earrings? most of the things are pretty much halfway taken care of with a few surprises up my sleeve. :)

today was a very good day. it started with a hearty breakfast and refillable coffee, good weather, and 2 excited hearts filled with hope. we took care of our to-be-wed papers! everything went along smoothly, and the penghulu seems like a genuinely nice man.

rain season is starting, hopefully that weekend won't be a wet one for us. if it does rain, hopefully everyone will have fun anyway :) perhaps we'll all sing, dance and let loose as if we're in the shower.

i wish you could be there on our happy day, but i can already hear Him saying "she'll be there, i promise".

love you 'nek, i miss you so much,
irma

3... 2... 1...

counting down... or counting up?

twenty four days left in october. i've been so busy with work and getting the stuff done, that i feel like i haven't had time to breathe, and i'm enjoying every moment.

6 days til his birthday. one other thing add to my list of things to think about. isn't my (unconditional) love for you enough of a birthday present? hee hee

mind vs. heart

the right thing to do vs. the wild thing to do.

the right thing to do vs. the right thing to do in my mind.

the right thing to do vs. the right thing to do according to who?


do you believe in karma?

41

...days to go.

i think we got things under control. finished designing/doodling invitations yesterday. approved. yay! matching passport photos done. souvenirs: halfway through?

it's been a very good weekend, i'm very blessed. had a lot of hand-holding, stolen kisses, meal-sharing, running through the rain.

hot cocoa & cups of coffees, pannacotta and walnut ice cream. singing sappy love songs, sit-com conversations and spare time for waiting.

it's been a good day (and yesterday). thank you honey.