last month

around this time, 4 fridays ago, my grandmother took her last breaths. although it's bright and sunny out, i feel a cloud hovering over my head. i can't help that i'm deeply saddened. it's going to be.. different (for lack of words) this year, coming home from the morning ied prayers and not see her wait for our arrival on our front porch.

:_(

but, to end this on a positive note, last year was the most memorable ied morning ever. the sun was warm, we had laughs over breakfast, took family photographs, it was picture perfect. and this year she'll be here only in spirit. i hope (and i'm certain) that she's in a better place now, feeling at peace and content. i will try to throw my sadness away and learn to be happy for her.



ps. i love you and miss you very much. i'm so sorry if i ever hurt you or wasn't a good grandchild to you. i'm so sorry.