me 2.0

i'm the best version of me when i'm with you.

i heart you, in darkness and in sunshine

and anywhere in between the color spectrum

photo by RAS

6 for two

6 months. together, you and i. it's not a long amount of time to some people, and it surely felt short to us.. but these 6 months have been... wonderful. i don't know how else to say it, i'm not the one good with words. you've been nothing but loving, understanding, knowing and all the good "-ings" that exists in the dictionary.

i love how we're beginning to create our own traditions :)

you couldn't have given me a better gift for our 6-month anniversary: in 2 islands in one day, part of the day with my best friends, and the rest of the day with you. you listened patiently to my stories of the trip, we had steak dinner then walked to our favorite coffee shop...

i'm truly a lucky person to have you in my life, honey. i love you forever.

no you nor me only us.

six words. six months. now, just the two of us.

image by RAS.

thursday love letter 2

dear you,

it's been almost 5 months (and a total of 3 years together) and i can't get enough of the way you look at me, even when i look like a total mess. the way you touch my hair, even though it's coarse, you treat it with special care. and when i go to sleep, i can't wait to see you smile when i wake you. i wish you could feel what i'm feeling. i wish i could dive inside your head and heart to see your thoughts, especially when we're both being stubborn. i think you're the better cook between us, and i'm glad you're the kind of man who'll gladly do chores and throw out the garbage. that's how it should be :P

love you,
wifey


ps. how sexy is that? my man giving his woman a foot rub

love is not you, it's us

out of the few years we've been together, we never have celebrated valentine's day. we still didn't make it an event a few days ago and ended up spending the day being apart. however, this year is different; we're married now :) and i woke up to see this on my bedside table.

ps. happy valentine's day honey :) and thank you for the chocolates

i heart you, nasgor

it's that extra something that makes my heart melt all over the place all over (and over) again.

sunday

3 on the 2nd

3 things i'm happy to greet each morning:

your smile, your hug, and coffee!

have a colorful day!

absolute beginners, david bowie

I've nothing much to offer
There's nothing much to take
I'm an absolute beginner
And I'm absolutely sane
As long as we're together
The rest can go to hell
I absolutely love you
But we're absolute beginners
With eyes completely open
But nervous all the same

If our love song
Could fly over mountains
Could laugh at the ocean
Just like the films
There's no reason
To feel all the hard times
To lay down the hard lines
It's absolutely true

Nothing much could happen
Nothing we can't shake
Oh we're absolute beginners
With nothing much at stake
As long as you're still smiling
There's nothing more I need
I absolutely love you
But we're absolute beginners
But if my love is your love
We're certain to succeed

If our love song
Could fly over mountains
Sail over heartaches
Just like the films
There's no reason
To feel all the hard times
To lay down the hard lines
It's absolutely true


ps. replaying in my head and ears. i miss you so much, i'll miss you even more tonight, and tomorrow.

in sickness

last weekend was the first time since getting married, that i got really sick. he patiently rubs my lower back until i fall asleep. i actually sleep the whole night through. and in the morning, everything's better.

could it be... that i may have gotten sick because i can't stand to be away from him for more than one night?

;)

last first kiss

never did i think that that first kiss would be my last first kiss.

it surely was something, and now i get to have it everyday.

:)

i heart you

hearts in our days in the past. more to come, i'm sure :)

confession time!

i have a confession to make. the "true colors" entry was meant to be for my best friend. most of the time she doesn't realize how really beautiful she is. i wonder how colorful and shiny her aura is, must be spreading for thousands of miles. she has stuck with me for years and years, through thick and thin (literally, and unliterally). her kindness and sincerity leaves me speechless. i don't know what i did to ever to deserve you. love you always :)

ps. i know what i should give you on my big day, a box of tissues! you'll probably cry more than me hee hee :P

red

i even love your red socks.

urgh, i'm so hopeless.

wish you were here

dear nenek,

i suddenly extremely miss you, almost to the point where i can feel my heart breaking. he tells me that you’re here with me, but you’re not, which makes it hurt even more. and to pray for you makes it hard for me to breathe. so, i thought this would be easier.

i've been pretty busy, doing overtime at work, getting stuff done for my wedding. so many things to do; i think the trick is just to prioritize and manage the time carefully between trying to take care of those errands and making sure i spend as much time as i can with the family. thankfully, it's not as stressful as i hear from other peoples' experiences. thankfully, ibu & ayah, and the whole family, and his whole family have been so helpful and supportive. thankfully, our friends have been so excited about our relationship and the wedding. thankfully, he is proving to be such a great partner. i don't know how i'll ever be able to repay them for their love.

we finished the design of our invitations, i think you'd like his design better, he drew it all by hand. my classic-cut kebaya is being sewn, the rings are ready to be picked up. i wonder what item of yours i can wear that day, may i borrow a pair of your gold earrings? most of the things are pretty much halfway taken care of with a few surprises up my sleeve. :)

today was a very good day. it started with a hearty breakfast and refillable coffee, good weather, and 2 excited hearts filled with hope. we took care of our to-be-wed papers! everything went along smoothly, and the penghulu seems like a genuinely nice man.

rain season is starting, hopefully that weekend won't be a wet one for us. if it does rain, hopefully everyone will have fun anyway :) perhaps we'll all sing, dance and let loose as if we're in the shower.

i wish you could be there on our happy day, but i can already hear Him saying "she'll be there, i promise".

love you 'nek, i miss you so much,
irma

song found

yes. i think i've found our song. or at least, this one sort of speaks about us. no such thing as coincidence :P

My one and only love, by sting

The very thought of you makes
My heart sing
Like an April breeze
On the wings of spring
And you appear in all your splendor
My one and only love

The shadows fall
And spread their mystic charms
In the hush of night
While you're in my arms
I feel your lips so warm and tender
My one and only love

The touch of your hand is like heaven
A heaven that I've never known
The blush on your cheek
Whenever I speak
Tells me that you are my own

You fill my eager heart with
Such desire
Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire
I give myself in sweet surrender
My one and only love

The blush on your cheek
Whenever I speak
Tells me that you are my own
You fill my eager heart with
Such desire
Every kiss you give
Sets my soul on fire
I give myself in sweet surrender
My one and only love

My one and only love


ps. kiss

a song for you

songbird - eva cassidy

For you there'll be no crying
For you the sun will be shining
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

To you, I would give the world
To you, I'd never be cold
‘Cause I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright, I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing
Like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

Like never before; like never before.


ps. i love you, like never before

a letter

I wish I had met you. If I had the chance, I would thank you for raising your son to be the man he is today. The man who is soon to be my husband. The man I will promise to love and share my life with, to have him live the fullest life he wants to live.

I wish I had the chance to get to know you, then I would find out who he got his deep eyes from, his genuine smile, his characteristic walk from. I would figure out all the traits and habits he inherited from you. His love and curiosity for life, his thirst for knowledge, his big heart of giving.

I wish you were here, so he could feel this once in a lifetime experience with you. To share this chapter of his story, together with you. I know you are present with him and are forever in his heart, and I know this is just wishful thinking, still… from the deepest place in my heart, I wish you were here.


Love,
irma