half past midnight

i'm excited about the wedding, but oddly enough, not overly. people say "enjoy this part, enjoy fantasizing"... oddly enough, i've been too realistic, but never pessimistic. sometimes i feel like i'm raining on my own parade. perhaps it's because i'm not (as?) naive anymore, perhaps because i feel more mature, perhaps it's because i'm lucky enough to have gone through my life so far, him as well, and we both have come to our decision, so naturally. that part is really nice. it's not all about the wedding, it's about the marriage.

i'm excited about the unknown. the good, even the bad, the things that will be unveiled, the obstacles we'll have to overcome together, the events and disagreements that will shape our character. i realize it's not all fun and games, although we can try to make it to be. i realize it's going to take lots of hard work, compromise, even sacrifice. more trust and more faith. i'm thankful that marriage will be part of my learning experience in this lifetime.

sometimes it shines, sometimes it rains. then a rainbow after the rain.

there's always hope and laughter at the end of it :)