in sickness

last weekend was the first time since getting married, that i got really sick. he patiently rubs my lower back until i fall asleep. i actually sleep the whole night through. and in the morning, everything's better.

could it be... that i may have gotten sick because i can't stand to be away from him for more than one night?

;)

last first kiss

never did i think that that first kiss would be my last first kiss.

it surely was something, and now i get to have it everyday.

:)

bad is good. good is good.

i wonder what's in store for me in 2010. the end of 2009 is nearing and it's been quite a year. what happened in 2009, i'll write in some other post, some other time.

this one is about this past long-weekend. good news or bad news first?

okay, bad news.

i discovered that my myomas had grown almost twice the size since 2 years ago. when my doctor told me i needed to get an operation to take them out, although he was very reassuring that there was no need to worry too much, honestly i was shocked. i wished i had my best friend waiting outside the room. i'd never been hospitalized before, never broke a bone, let alone undergo surgery. although the myoma is a benign form of tumor and does not lead to cancer, due to its fast growth it needs to be observed. if i had gotten pregnant, most probably the myoma would grow even faster because of the higher level of estrogen. i'd have to deliver the baby by c-section instead of natural birth because the myoma may tear in the process or may block the passage of the baby coming out. but i'm not pregnant, so that's good :)

it's amazing that a simple touch of a hand can make your worries melt away. my husband was driving as i told him this piece of news while trying to hold back some tears (successfully!). while doing so, all he had to do was hold my hand and kiss it and say nothing, and i knew everything is going to be alright. it's magic!

i strongly suggest to my dear dear friends who i deeply love, to go see your obgyn, tag a girlfriend along if that makes you feel better, and get your yearly check-up.

to learn more about myomas/uterine fibroids
http://www.indianwomenshealth.com/Uterine-Fibroids-67.aspx?gclid=CMWjzKn35p4CFYowpAodFkq
http://www.uterine-fibroids.org/myoma.html

and now on to the good news.

i don't know how this happened, but all of a sudden we're buying a house! woohoo!

all logic says we're probably not ready yet, but so far, the pattern shows that when we're following our hearts, we can make it!

it's in the details

special details and very special people that made my wedding day even more extraordinary.

some of my favorite pics, taken by my best friend.

back to 1, and counting up :)

today marks our 1st month anniversary of the day we wed. it's a strange feeling.

the days seem to fly by so quickly, and i can't believe we haven't had a night apart since last month. on the other hand, it feels like we've been together for much more than one month (which seems such a short period of time), perhaps because we're so comfortable around each other, plus we traveled a lot during this time. we haven't even had time to enjoy (and clean up) our mess of our place.

i'm so thankful for today, for yesterday, and for the thought of tomorrow. i'm thankful for our families and our dear friends who seem to have bottomless buckets of love for us. i'm thankful for him, who always gives me a smile when he wakes up and before he goes to bed. this makes me feel so good, like i'm doing something right. like he's happy with life and love. like i make him happy, cos that's what i wish for, his happiness during the day, and good sleep at night.

i hope we don't drive each other (too) crazy in the future. and to know that he'll say "it will surely happen, it's only normal" calms me. haha!



ps. friends ask me how married life is, i say that you are even better as a husband :) love you.

perfect wedding?

any situation can become perfect, it's all in your head. in my case, Alhamdulillah, i had the whole universe on my side. i could sleep well the nights before, errands got done, i had my quality time with family and friends, i even had my license (and my nails) done, and managed to squeeze in a massage the day before. in the morning of the wedding, i felt at ease.

i'd say that my day was more than i ever hoped for, everything went on smoothly (apart from my dad heading to the emergency room, and mom getting diarrhea, as a result of being nervous). the weather was beautiful for a garden party even though it's rain season. the decor was just as we wished, there was food for everybody, and the guests seemed like they're having fun (at least, that's how it looked like in the pics). our friends and family who sang were lovely!

i do wish i could relive it in slow-motion, the day passed too quickly! i'm afraid i'll forget it, but i do know that he and i were 2 very happy people on this earth.

post 101

just realized that my last entry was the 100th! very interesting!

first entry as a wife

i don't know much about this world. i haven't lived enough to learn enough. sometimes, perhaps i'm too ignorant? half the time i'm not sure of what i want, what to do, where to go or even what i want to have for dinner. but a few things i know for sure, to prioritize family and health. somehow i always knew i wanted to work in the creative field, build a foundation to help kids, and somehow, i have always pictured myself starting my own little family, working part-time while raising my kids. hopefully the latter will become reality as well.

when i met you, i wasn't sure where we were going but i had a strong feeling that whatever it was, that it's a good thing. and when we got to being serious, i never had a doubt in my mind (and in my heart) that i wanted you in my life for the long-run.

and now here we are, married.

and so far it's simply wonderful. :)



ps. thank you for making my life ever more so colorful than i ever imagined it to be.